Tuesday, 03 March 2009

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  I feel sicker and sicker everytime I talk to you.And I like it.
  
  I don't really know what to say to you. You make me feel cold and warm inside at the same time. I keep thinking about Friday and how you acted around me. It's something I wanted for a while. You held me hand and I felt so vulnerable. I never wanted to leave you. What the hell is wrong with me?! I know you know I like you. I wouldn't dream of hurting you....except when it comes to biting your neck.... You're beautiful in so many ways and I can't seem to tell you the way I feel. Something keeps telling me it's wrong,even though everyone keeps telling me I'm wrong. Everytime I think of you,my mind goes crazy and my stomach sinks. You were right when you said I had too much on my mind.Thing is,you're the only thing on my mind. I wake up and see your smile. I go to sleep and see your face. It's all too much for me and yet, I crave for more of it.I want to see you on Thursday. At least for half a hour...just to cure my sanity. I want to know if you still feel the same way you felt on Friday or was it just a fluke.
  
  This feeling of vulnerability is just the thing that's really eating at me. I spent so much time building up this person of who I wanted to be and it's like none of it matters to me as long as I can be with you.
  
  I'm not going to let her go.
  I am not going to give up on her like how I gave up on every other girl I knew.
  I'm sick of waiting.
  I'm sick of keeping her waiting.
  I just have to keep my sanity until Thursday.
  
  The Emotionally Confused Ripper.
  
  

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